Today:  I lay down for a nap at 6:30pm - exhausted in mind, body and spirit. Sleep deprivation from husband, kids, life compounded with the responsibilities of mother, wife, health practitioner, daughter - care taker. I knew I needed a shift before going to treat a client at 8:30pm.

I began to wonder why we don't have a personal distress symbol/beam. You know, like the one the city of Gotham has to call Batman? And why we can't access it when we are not in severe distress, just when we need a pick up?

When I was pregnant - the universe magically conspired to shower upon me gifts (expensive diaper bag from a client, car seat, etc), strangers were kind, and my very busy friends took the time to surround me with love and support.
When a friend or client is in crisis - ex. detoxing from cigarettes/drugs - friends/family surround him/her with support.

Why can't we have it when we are not in crisis? Why can't well intentioned, positive friends and strangers magically appear and surround us in regular moments for exhaustion and life and sing to us,

"We are here to tell you that you are wonderful and beautiful. We are here to tell you, that you are always whole. We are here to notice that your loving is a miracle. How deeply you are connected to our soul."
 (A NCWHS song).

As I was thinking all this - of course I started to smile and relax. Because I realized that I have the ability to call on this support - ANY TIME and ANY WHERE. I have the ability to give it to myself just by REMEMBERING!

This past week - I realized that my girlfriend Sherry and others had gifted me with several compliments - What a great friend and person I was. How special I was. How important I was, how together I was, etc. And I was like, "Thank you." But you know the "thank you" that I am talking about - the embarrassed "thank you" that is hiding the hidden thought - "If you only knew" or the hidden thought, "okay - yah right"

The Truth:  I was not truely present to The Gift that was being bestowed upon me in energy, intention and words. So like an abandoned gift that remains under the tree at Christmas time - unopened. I put it aside and had a pity party of how unsupported I am and how overwhelmed I am.

Zoom to the present: As I lay in the twilight that occurs before sleep - I opened those neglected gifts - I drank in the nectar of those thoughts and words and intention bestowed upon me by my fabulous network of singing goddesses! And it was Good! I was nourished, revitalized and rejuvenated.

I remembered:  I am whole complete and perfect. All is well! I am supported and I am strong. This is EASY!